So i would be normally putting up pics like crazy but i am not sure the last place of my camera. I will have to find that to put up more pics of this baby jade growing like a weed. Wow they grow fast. I have been at work for a week now and I am so happy to be back. I missed the clients who loved me and the chit chatting I get to do w/them. I sure missed being a part of other peoples animals lives. It was awesome that the animals that knew me who haven't seen me in months were so excited to see me again. Affirms that I am really in the right career field. I started a blog at my job to let people see how much fun it is at our job and that we all are a team there.

Yesterday we finished putting our bedroom together and now it is the bedroom i always dreamed of. Our living is just about to be finished tomorrow and then it will be my dream living room. My kitchen is amazing to cook in. Jade's room is so fun to be in and our office feels like an actual office. My house feels so warm and cozy, I love it. I said to Ronnie last night, we are so rich what more could we ask for?

I am just so happy with life right now it is never something I thought I could ever be.

Soon I will put up more pics of jade.

Wide awake at 1224 am b/c jade woke up one hour ago crying and normally we don't go in and let her go back to sleep on her but b/c she is so sick with a nasty cold ronnie went in there and sniffed and much to our amaze, poop all over we found. So thank goodness for my husband intelligence to go in there this time. She was covered in poop. But this still doesn't ease my worries about her constant coughing and choking she is experiencing, i am just worried about it. I hope she gets better soon. I start back to work at eight am today and have to be up in five and half hours and hope i can be back to sleep soon, i guess i am learning what it is to be a working mom today and i actually haven't gone to work yet, i was told that sometimes you loose sleep and i am getting prepared for the non-perfect way things used to be before a baby. But it is ok, since I have become not selfish i don't get upset like i did before. I love her so much i don't care if i only get a few hours of sleep b/c before i would be mad and tired but i choose to be awak in the morning and be happy. Ok enough of my rambling. Goodnight world.

my dreams

So I realized my dreams today for the first time ever and I want to share them with the world.

I grew up in a great life, got everything i needed and never wanted for anything thanks to my parents Janet and Lee. They are two human beings I want to grow up to be in life someday, the way they raise their kids with so much care, concern and love. Their marriage is so amazing to look up to, I only hope mine can be as amazing as theirs.

I have never really let love into my life for fear of being hurt so I just have always been a very cold person who is rude to others, and make it very hard for anyone to love me. I now know the true meaning of love and can feel it in a way that I have never felt it before. That is because of Jade. God put her in my life for a reason and that is to live this amazing life. I was just existing before, had no purpose on this planet, no drive or ambition til the day I met her.

I am so grateful that: i have an amazing family who is so generous with people on this earth, they only want to make a difference in this world and leave a legacy, for my friends who I met along this amazing journey called Life, I could not be who I am today without their guidance and patience, and for my husband who I wouldn't get to be a great wife and wonderful mother at all because of how he listens to me and creates me as. He is my rock.

How I can't wait to feel everyday is: I get up at 6am, brew my coffee that smells like texas pecans and is so good, get ready for work and put on my oh so comfy scrubs, and drive into work with no one on the road and beautiful stars out guiding me on the road because it is still dark outside and i am drinking my coffee which is making me warm. I get to open the doors of the clinic for the first time each day and before I walk into the doors of animals loving me, I get to create how it is going to go for that day at Crystal Mountain Animal Hospital. I can say if we are going to have a bad day or a great day because my word is that powerful. I get to walk back into the kennel and say GOOD MORNING DOGGIES AND KITTIES. I get to smell the nice scents I have put throughout the clinic so it is refreshing when you come in. I get to start talking to my favorite people, clients. I love answering their questions, sharing my knowledge with them, shed tears with them, listen to their fears and problems, share in their excitment of a new animal or something amazing in their life. At 3 o'clock everyday I get to get into the car and head back to my mothers house and pick up Jade. I get to listen to the secret on my way their in the car and create how the rest of my day is going to go. When I get to my mom's she is full of happy grandma smiles and says your daugther was amazing today and blessed my life today. I get to pick up Jade who is smilig at me and hug her for the first time of the day and smell her hair,which smells like that baby smell. Give her kisses and take her home. We get to come home and unpack her stuff and put it away and then start playing. She will get to tell me about her day at her grandmas house where she had fun all day. I will cook dinner for her and my husband so when he comes home he can sit down to a warm and yummy meal i had fun cooking for my family. Then it is bathtime and that is oh so much fun. Then daddy reads a book to his baby girl and we kiss her goodnight and she goes to bed and then my husband and i enjoy our evening together with lots of love in our hearts. I am so happy that my day was full-filled for me of nothing but love I never have really felt before I had my daughter. I am blessed to be alive and in this world.

Those are my dreams

Thanks for reading.

Good morning everyone. I am up at 437 am because baby Jade is crying and I just can't decide weather to go and check on her or not because I don't want to ruin her routine of calming herself down and back to sleep but she has been going on and off for awhile now and I can get upstairs with my walking boot. The only good thing about not being able to go upstairs beforem was that I couldn't go in when she cried and she learned how to calm herself down thanks do Ronnie, which is great to have a self calm baby but ya know, first time mom wants to get it right. Ugh what a dilemma so early when the brain isn't functioning so well.

LIFE

i am just so happy about life, ihope i don't go back to my old self of being ungrateful and not appreciate anything and unhappy, cause now that i am getting back to regular life and have been blessed with so many people in my life to help me through this i am just so elated with happiness tonight. I am so blessed with my life and all i have and who i have in it. I have the most amazing mother anyone could ask for who puts everyone before herself and just loves so much it shows in what she does for everyone, the bestest friend who is so selfless when she has so much going on in her life that she helps me whenever i need it, a husband who once was the most selfish person i knew became willing to do what it took to take care of his wife and child and give so much love he didn't know he had and a mother in law who loves her daugther in law and grandchild so much that she is willing to add more to her plate when her plate is already over filled as it is and she is selfless as hell. I just wanted all you to know how i feel about you all and tell you that I couldn'tdo it without any of you and thank you so much for helping through a rough time in my life.

I love you all very much.

I am not fond of my nails being cut

Eating my fingers

look at me i am in the laundry basket

i am just so happy about life, ihope i don't go back to my old self of being ungrateful and not appreciate anything and unhappy, cause now that i am getting back to regular life and have been blessed with so many people in my life to help me through this i am just so elated with happiness tonight. I am so blessed with my life and all i have and who i have in it. I have the most amazing mother anyone could ask for who puts everyone before herself and just loves so much it shows in what she does for everyone, the bestest friend who is so selfless when she has so much going on in her life that she helps me whenever i need it, a husband who once was the most selfish person i knew became willing to do what it took to take care of his wife and child and give so much love he didn't know he had and a mother in law who loves her daugther in law and grandchild so much that she is willing to add more to her plate when her plate is already over filled as it is and she is selfless as hell. I just wanted all you to know how i feel about you all and tell you that I couldn'tdo it without any of you and thank you so much for helping through a rough time in my life.

I love you all very much.

Hello everyone, I started walking today a bit and I am so excited about it. Soon I will be back with the normal functioning world. Yeah.