my job

So I got laid off of my other job where I was a social media assistant. But I am fine and OK with it because it had me get to try something else for the first time in 8 years and I had fun but realized that what I am doing now is what I want to be doing for a very long time. I so love my job. I used to take it for granted and be rude to my boss and upset about little things but now I am just happy all the time there. Pretty much all the time, I don't get irritated with anyone or anything. I used to roll my eyes at my boss when he told me to do something now i say OK what do you need. I now really appreciate my job and love just love taking care of animals and i really enjoy being with clients. i am such a people person. I like being the voice for animals. So I know I am in the right place in life with my career. I am stable again with my bi-polar.

My psychiatrist hadn't seen anyone in 20 yrs be so great and positive through pregnancy and afterwards for the first 7 months with how the level of bi-polar i have. I did hit the wall 3 weeks ago but all it took was correcting the dose of my meds and now i am great again. I am no longer annoyed by jade and love taking care of her and I appreciate my husband so much and our marriage is amazing. My life couldn't' be more rich as it is now. I am going back to work on Tues and Thur's and we got a sitter which i am happy about b/c i want more people in jade's life to teach her. i wish my mom could do it all the time but she has her own life and her own work and my mother-in law can't do it right now so we found the next best thing, a really great girl who knows babies well.

look at my cheeks i look like a cabbage patch doll

jade is talking and teething

I think I like having something to complain about. I didn't get to sleep much last night because Jade is teething so bad she wants to be up all night. I go in sometimes because she flips herself to one side that she can't get back over and frankly i want some sleep so i don't want to hear crying anymore. But it doesn't work. So I am not going in anymore unless she is screaming bloody murder for more than 20 mins. But this whole up for 1 hr talking and crying some and then sleeping is driving me insane. We are zombie parents. We are snappy at work with everyone (we work together, that is how we met), and all co-workers and clients get on our nerves sometimes cause we are so tired.

Today I had an oppurtuinity to take a nap while my mom had jade when I got off of work early. I took it big time. Now I feel rested and have nothing to do. Now instead of being tired and whiny about it I am bored. Come'on Kristen how about be happy for a change.

I have no idea how you parents who have 2 kids that are very small do it. I do not want another kid. I wanted another one badly when jade was sleeping 12 hrs a night but I think I am too old to do it again and I know ronnie is too old, he is 40 this year. One will do it for us.

To top it all off, my dr. is pretty sure I am a diabetic. I am taking the nasty glucose tolerance test next tues to find out. The only thing good about it is that I can get on some kind of medication to loose weight cause I am sick of this weight struggle. I never ever in my whole life thought I would have to deal with obesity and here it is. My dad is like this because he is diabetic and loosing weight when you are one is very hard to do. I am freaking determined to get this weight off and get skinny and pretty again. I am pretty miserable these days and uncomfortable in my own body. I am ready for the dr's to have some answers already.


I am excited to have sat's to myself now. My husband and I agreed that after I get off of work on sat's i can go to my friend's house and hang out with her all day and night and come home whenever. I am so excited about that. He gets one night a week to go out with a friend after work and I am now doing the same thing.

I have to utilize this blog more. It is a great outlet.